I friggen hate feeling nauseous. All of a sudden for the past few weeks its a daily or multiple times a day thing. That and my 16 pound weight loss this semester just highlight the new rise of my GI symptoms 😒😣
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any thoughts? for lyme?
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I’m sick of taking all this stuff everyday, no pun intended
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has anyone ever heard of this place? been there? i need some info!
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migraines every damn day are you kidding? i got a new preventative med that i decided not to use because i’m afraid of the side effects. it’s an anti-depressant. who knew anti-depressants were used for migraine prophylaxis? i decided tonight that i would start because i’m getting real freaked out that i’m not gonna be able to make it through the semester. i’m not trying to drop out of school again. i just hope they dont screw with my moods and shit. whatever. bye
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I SURVIVED THE 1ST MONTH OF NURSING SCHOOL!!! So i think it’s about time i get back on my tumblr grind. or at least try. As the summer progressed so did my migraines, and my facial numbness and tingling and droopiness. as well as my neck pain and the increasing concern about the random lump that’s been there for like a year.
these are things i have experienced before, but it’s been a while since then. i had my physical in august and from there i was sent to a neurologist. he said the lump is a benign lymphoma but isnt something he deals with- put me on migraine preventative meds, another migraine pill, got me a brain MRI and sent me to the ENT specialist. great, so much for being a natural herbal freak like i wanted.
the ENT did scans of my neck and said the lump was nothing more than normal lymph nodes. riiiight, because i’m sure lymph nodes that are PAINFUL and feel like a mass protruding from my neck for OVER A YEAR are 100% normal. guess what he says. theres nothing i can do so follow up with your neurologist. REALLY? because my neurologist said the same thing which is why my ass landed in your office in the 1st place.
sooo then it hit me. no one can figure out what’s wrong. i’m being bounced back and forth between doctors because they don’t really know what to do. this story only feels a teeny bit familiar. and after researching online, it finally sunk in. basically this entire summer i’ve been in denial. obviously my lymph nodes are swollen and none of these main stream MDs can figure out the issue, because the issue is Lyme disease.
and here comes the sick part, that i almost feel so disgusted with myself to even admit. i was really praying that these doctors would have an answer for me, but like a bad one. i wanted someone to tell me that i had a tumor on my neck, i wanted someone to tell me that i have multiple sclerosis or peripheral neuropathy. i wanted someone to diagnose me with some sort of disease that wasn’t Lyme. it sounds horrible, i’m well aware of that, but i have damn good reason. i’m not saying in any way that people with these issues have it easy and don’t suffer because believe me, i know they do, but with all these other possibilities, there are better ways to manage them and there’s more successful things you can do to feel better. but once i face the fact that i’m feeling absolutely miserable and crying from my pain everyday because of Lyme disease, i have to face the fact that there’s jack shit i can do about it besides push through it.
so tomorrow, i follow up with the neurologist and see what the MRI said. i guarantee he’s gonna tell me that my brain is inflamed but there’s nothing else wrong. i’m gonna have him take me off his meds because they obviously aren’t working and re-evaluate my options. natural medicine has been doing me good but all of us in the Lyme world know that stress is like a steroid for those dirty spirochetes- they thrive and attack the hardest when you’re at your weakest. i had a horrible week between my arthritis and migraines and saw a lot more tears than i’ve seen in a while and it was seriously extremely discouraging. i haven’t been so upset about my health in a long time. i hope i have a better week ahead of me 💚🙏
